new life chapter

dear blog,

it's been a month since i've been graduated from high school. a lot of news i want to share. the good one, i already got a university for continued my future. the bad one, i'm a single ladies now. how it happen, lemme tell ya

we've been broke up about a month ago. for real, i dumped him. not because i hate him, but because i don't think that he could accepted my life since we in different world. he's in job training and i'm in university. we have a different world now. and from what he did to me, i don't think that he could accept it.

what do you say? i was mean? yes absolutely, i was mean.but it would be better now than we already entered that world then we fight everyday just because a lil' problem. so here i am, fresh graduate, single, and my heart is still empty.

but wait, i forgot to tell ya that someone already book my heart. he's my ex. my first boy when i'm entering my senior high school's world. he is RAYDINDA RIZKO PRAHESANANDY. oh right, for anyone who already know his name, yes he is mine again. not mine for officially maybe since we never said that we want to be together officially but we know that we had each other. but the problem is, he's heading to padjajaran and i'm stuck here. it's not a big problem maybe, but for me, it is.

can you imagine how life would be if you are far away from family, with a lot of beautiful girls around you, and no one can checking your life everyday? yeah that is our problem. i still can't accept that he would be there. i mean it's not about the distance, it's about him. i just got him back and now it's like i have to let him go. no one knows what will happen. i'm not ready to be hurt yet. even he said that he loves me and he won't let me go. no one knows buddy, no one knows.

that's why even i had a change, i still cry everyday. i know it would be hard for him too. but i still can't believe that he won't love other girls there. still can't.

for sure, i need a commit. but if i always ask for a commit, i know it would make him confused. that's why i try to understand. just hope that he wouldn't broke his promises to me